Part 4: Family
Let's end here on the day that started the desire for writing it all down. Let's end on this day of thankfulness with those that I am most thankful for, family.
As I sit here, they surround me, hold on a minute let me count, 10 to be exact. And because they're all here, I am content, nothing can go wrong in the world, because all the people I need the most are right here where I can reach out and touch them.
If I stop and think about it, if I focus really hard, I get back to this place, where family is all that matters. When I can do it, I remember to be grateful, for I have been blessed 10 times over. And on this day, where the smells from the kitchen wrap me up in goodness and the noise from the chatter soothes my nerves, this Thanksgiving day, I will be grateful.
I will try to carry it into this next month that is filled with noise and stress, try to remember to turn my face away from all that stuff and look into their eyes, and remember. I will try to carry it into this next minute when my mind turns instead to the one who is missing, the 11th who has no idea her future holds Thanksgiving dinners. I will be grateful, and allow the 10 to be enough, to be able to love the 11th and miss her, and still be content, with this moment right here.
There is bread to be crumbled, mashed potatoes to be mashed, pots to be stirred, and so I'm off. I want to be there right in the midst of this day, pausing and remembering when I laugh at their joke, or look in their eyes, there is nothing in this world I need besides you.