|This was obviously Kyle's idea, thank the Lord for Daddies!|
It has been almost three months since Chloe joined our family, it does me good to type that out. In my day to day existence it seems like we've had forever to adjust, but writing out the word three, reminds me that we are just at the beginning and it's okay to still be experiencing bumps in the road.
The other night I asked Kyle something that had suddenly occurred to me, "do you think it's as hard going from two to three now as you did at first?" He agreed that "having three" doesn't seem all that hard, what is hard for us is going from our youngest being three to our youngest being one. I'll just be honest and say I am selfish with my time and the constantness of parenting a one year old is hard to go back to.
|so yes, Jack has on no shorts, but we're potty training, what can you do|
I am happy. Does that sound weird, I have less time for myself, am more tired, and feel like I can't give anything the full attention it deserves, but I am happy. I am enjoying this life so very much, I am enjoying raising these children, I am even enjoying having them all to myself for the whole summer (shh...don't tell anyone but I even think I understand the draw of homeschooling now). Even though I complained of our very full schedule this spring I must have gotten used to it because we spend very little time at home, if we're not off to to an appointment, we at the splash pad, Target, or the library. Today at the library, we all got to pet a snake (yes even me, who has a freakish fear of snakes).
|check out Jack's "smile"|
And it's official my new most annoying comment I receive is, "are they twins?" (referring to Jack and Chloe). I know, I know people do not mean to annoy me, but let's just say Jack's size is on my mind enough without people thinking that he and his one year old sister are twins. On the topic of Jack's size we have seen/will see several specialist this summer about it and I'm excited to move forward to see if there is a cause and if there is anything we can be doing to help him grow to his full potential.
Chloe's personality is unraveling more and more each day. She is such a different little girl than she was when she came home. The more comfortable she becomes in her home and her family, the more I get to see who my daughter is. She is still adjusting, she is still grieving and has a way to go to trust me fully and even farther to trust Kyle, but every week I see her make progress and I know that someday she will be where Jack is now and I will have a really hard time remembering what this phase was like.