Sunday, December 4, 2011
Foreverforever part two
Over Thanksgiving week we went to court to finalize Chloe's adoption. I managed to be calm leading up to the big event and during since I knew this time that it was really just a formality. Once again the judge asked us to swear that we would be Chloe's parents and she would be our child in perpetuum. This time I knew the meaning of that big word, we were promising to love her in perpetuum, or foreverforever.
There are blessings in adoption that you never see coming. Our family's relationship with our kids is one of those things. They don't get a say in whether or not they would like to become an inter-racial family, whether or not they're okay with all the waiting. When I get to spend time with them and I watch them love my children so completely, the way I do, without regard to the way they joined our family, it's one of the greatest gifts in my life. They all came out to cheer us on, we had my entire family!, plus most of Kyle's. It was really amazing to have so many people who love our children there to witness the day that Chloe officially became ours.
Afterwards we all went out for ice cream and then we took the kids to the San Antonio children's museum. Let me tell you I had no idea a children's museum could be so big and have so much fun stuff to do! They all had a blast and by the time we left it was almost dinner time and I thought my feet might fall off.
Chloe, sweet daughter of mine, here's the thing, the way I love you surprises me everyday. For some reason I am always amazed by the love God gives us for our children, and that it doesn't decrease by the time you get to number three! You're aware of your competition though and you still get mad when I try to hold or snuggle Kylynn or Jack. But you have become a whole new person in these past eight months. You feel secure, you trust that I will come back for you when you go to the nursery at church, you crack me up all day long. And as of late you have decided that as of now you are able to do all things by yourself, any help from mommy is met with high pitched squealing.
I'm not sure how we were ever getting by in this world without you, but I am so glad that you are home now, that the courts agree with my heart, that you are mine. That I get to love you foreverforever.